Nature's Way

Early mornings over herbal tea. I feel the warm sunlight dance all over me, the sound of birds flapping past singing their sweet melodies. Trees standing tall and casting shade that this winter morning really doesn't need but helping us be and breathe with ease. It's always the little, unnoticed things in life that keep the flame within the soul at a constant glow. 

Nostalgia

Nostalgia: that bittersweet feeling, the perfect mix of both positive and negative emotions, the mind boggling mystery leaving you stuck between past and future in your present experience. Reminiscing about things that have come to pass. Euphoric and grateful for what had occurred then suddenly saddened by the reality that what's in the past is gone, never to be relived. The things you lost, you can never be returned, the people you used to call friends gone dead buried. The ex whose hand you use to hold now in the arms of another lover. The sweet innocence of childhood memories drifting away never to return. Your heart sinks with despair at the loss of a once lived past.

Nature x Love

Love lies beneath me, it is the ground that kisses my feet, it is the sandy breeze that brushes my cheek, it's the sound of singing birds soaring the skies. Love holds me down like gravity and kinetic energy, flowing like through blood in my veins connecting the oxygen in the in the air that I breathe to the beat of heart. Just like that, loves expands and grows, it takes only what it needs and unlike I used to believe jarule was wrong love is not pain! Love rains down on the earth through every sun Ray and bounces light off every moon and every star. Love pulls up the dirt through its roots and rises above it transcending dirt into a blooming flower. Love is when your belly grows and you let the heartbeat of another sing inside you. Love is 20 hours of labour. Love is old and wrinkly and doesn't care weather you believe that it is your savior yet love forever remains the hero in all the sentence in all the great stories present in all the books in all the world. 

From Your Back Pocket Into the Arms of Love in Abundance

"We accept the love we think we deserve" from our friends, family and lover/s. Sometimes its hard to set yourself free from a relationship or SITUATIONship because you're afraid that you might never make such a deep connection again or because you've had this person in your life for years and years or simply because you're afraid of starting over or being alone. Yes you are responsible for your own happiness but you are Also not machine, the environment and those in it do have an influence on you.
That being said, the people around you, especially those you deem very close to you, do have an impact, even if its very little, on your well-being.
If you keep people in your life that constantly disappoint, hurt, reject, abuse and treat you badly - some problems will arise.

I for example have kept a few people in my life that have made me question my worth.  I feel worthy of their love and acceptance but it never comes and perhaps this is a fault on my part but still, their actions drive me toward an internal curiosity.  I begin to question my worth as a friend, family member or lover.
Of late I have realised that some people will keep you in their back pocket.
The place where you keep things that you don't really want but might need from time to time to stroke your ego or hold your hand while you're going through a tough time or for a quick lay.

I'm grateful for the experience of life, the good and the bad because there is a lesson in almost everything.  Awareness is the first step toward growth.  Now that I have come to the realisation that I clearly have some issues of worth and that I've been entertaining people that don't hold me in a regard high enough to validate their position in my life it is imperative that I begin to cut myself loose from these destructive engagements. 

I preach love and light and wish it for every being.  At the same time I feel that self-preservation and self love is a key component through which love for others should flow. 
That being said, I release myself from the jail of emotional slavery.  I slowly begin to climb out from the back pocket of those who do not wish me well and I proceed to run for dear life in the hopes that I run into love in abundance.

Women...? In Religious Movements! (I found a place.. in my mind)

I really wanted to share this yesterday but my wifi was tripping so here goes:

It's Sunday and praise and worship is rife on most social networks as can be expected every Sunday. 
Reading these religious updates got me thinking..
I don't know if I'm a feminist, like, a hardcore feminist BUT I know that I love and respect the female species and my heart bleeds a little every time I hear of one getting raped, beaten or even just not being treated with at least an ounce of respect.

Then Mother Nature comes to mind, the trees, the soil, the air - they all exist in such perfect chaotic harmony and make life possible on this planet.
Just like the Nature of a woman.  Fertile, child-bearing, capable and most importantly, woman are beings just as our male counterparts.

 So I fail to understand just why it seems that in the entire history of the world - culturally, traditionally, RELIGIOUSLY, women are the boot-lickers of society.
I can't understand it and so now I'm just tired and I refuse to accept or have history repeat itself well especially not for myself.

That being said I imagined a religion that I might have been truly inspired to follow:

God is a woman. She has a vagina and through it the world as we know it came into being.

Mother Nature is equivalent to Buddha, Jesus, Mohammed etc because just as they did, Mother Nature always, all ways reveals truths.

 Leaders of note within the religion would be women like Cleopatra, Joan of Arc, Helen Keller, Marie Antoinette, Maya Angelou, Mother Theresa, Pocahontas, Rosa Parks,
Funmilayo Ransome-Kuti, Miriam Makeba, Yaa Asantewa and others alike

 The followers of this religion would operate like Lionesses, supporting each other and working strategically to make life better for the world entire.

 Rituals would involve ploughing the fields in appreciation of Mother Natures food bearing qualities; dancing in the moonlight taking pride in the bodies provided by mother God; The changing seasons, sunrise and sunset would be our teachers and other such lovely activities!!

 Aaah, dare to dream :)

Anyways I think it best if we all (male and female) simply followed the purity of our hearts.
Church is wherever God is, whatever you perceive Him or Her to be and a part of God lives within us all so church is wherever you are. 
Get to know yourself and you'll find God.
Love is God, God is Love.

 PEACE

 

BabyMomma-Love & BabyDaddy-Drama (wake up & realize, real lies)

This is not a post about the babydaddies that stuck around
This is not about the man who tagged along to prenatal visits with the woman bearing his child.
This is not about the man who was there on the day of the birth of his seed and everyday following.
This is not about the prince that makes sure nappies and milk are stocked up for his baby.
This is not about the king that stays up late changing diapers and feeding his little one.
This is not about the chief that kisses booboos, shows love and gives little cuddles to little people.
This is not about the daddies that are worthy of the title.

This is for the babymommas desperately holding onto the cracks in the foundations of the dreams of a happy family.
This is for the babymommas hopelessly clutching at invisible strings holding together two people who once came together to bring about the existence of  a beautiful being but who can no longer be.

Ladies. Wake up!
Its 2AM on a Friday night, your baby is having a screaming match with you and guess where the man that you are dying to be with is?
He is in the club buying out bottles for other women in the VIP;
He is in bed with his new lover;
He is off on a weekend getaway with his boys;
AND to be quite frank he could care less about you and the sleepless nights you have raising HIS child.  He has gone on to live the life of a childless man and yet you still insist that the two of you belong together!!
I understand, he is the father of your child and you care about him, you always will, I mean he did help make the most important little person in your life after all.
You want to believe and dream of a day the three of you will be a happy family, you tell yourself that if you keep sleeping with him and making yourself emotionally available for this man that one day he might realize how great you are and maybe even marry you.

I'm not here to crush dreams and I'm not saying that it won't happen but at least only give yourself to him if and when he starts proving himself as a father to someone who is his blood.
Because if he cannot be loyal and responsible in his own child's life then what makes you think he will commit to you in any way?
And lets say he does not end up committing to you. That means that you might miss out on a chance with someone who truly wants to be there for you and who will exhaust all his efforts to do so.

REALIZE:

1  You and your little one(s) already are a family with or without a man
2  You can be as happy as you allow yourself to be
3  You deserve a man that takes care of his responsibilities
4  Continuing a sexual relationship with this man (babydaddy) will not guarantee his return
5  Any man would be luck and happy to have you (at least any man smart enough to know when he has a good thing)

It is alright to let go, to move on and allow love in your life even if it does not come from the father of your child.
Do not become disheartened, love does exist.
Your child is a blessing embrace those late nights, bond with him/her at every opportunity and strengthen your family ties with them. 
Show love and instead of wasting energy on a man who is no longer interested in you or the well being of his child, save your energy for your baby - he/she needs and deserves it more.

INTUITION... What You Wishing?

I'm currently reading a book by my favorite author, Paulo Coelho entitled The Alchemist.
I know its fairly old and long overdue but this is the way the universe works.
One day a certain somebody is telling me of an Arab expression frequently used in the book, "Maktub" (it is written);
The next, an old friend kindly hands it over to me and now, here I am enthralled and fascinated with the book to the point where I'm having lovely late nights happily paging away in bed during these chilly winters nights.
Anyhow I'd like to share a passage from the book concerning Intuition as well as an old poem I'd written on the matter:

"Intuition is really a sudden immersion of the soul into the universal current of life, where the histories of all people are connected, and we are able to know everything, because it's all written there." - Paulo Coelho

THE POEM:

Voice within her heart
Lead her into Light
The way her heartbeat beats beats, that become transmitters
... Sending endless chains of love to her brain, keeping her sane.
Follow the rainbow
Chase the wonder
Go for gold.
This is the data sent from the channel deep within.
When she uses intuition there's no need left for pondering
For truth is something the soul always knows