Consistently Inconsistent

Ever felt as though there were about a thousand different sides of yourself just waiting her turn to emerge to be brought forth unto this dimension?
Well this is how I feel just about every other day. I have a crazy obsession with novelty, a passion for exploration, an insatiable need to constantly change myself.

I have no idea if it has something to do with me maybe, possibly being mentally ill or if I'm just one of those people that are that easily bored.  Anyhow, I realized just how consistently inconsistent I've been over the past years when I went out wig shopping just yesterday.  I was longing for a different texture, a different hair color, something that would make me look and feel completely different.  I never in my life thought that I'd ever be interested in buying or wearing a wig but after years of having relaxed hair, lo and behold, I got bored so I went over to a friends house and begged them to chop it all off. I felt like a new person on that day, it was exhilarating, I'd never felt so physically free in my entire life. Having my hair cut off made me change my perspective of beauty.  I always thought that being beautiful was to have long or soft hair and the first few nights regret consumed me and I cried myself to sleep cursing my kinky teeny weeny afro.  I hated looking in the mirror, I hated the reaction people would have when they first saw me in my truly natural state until I got bored of feeling sorry for myself.  So one day I washed my hair, put some conditioner in it and fell in love with the tiny curls on top of my head.  After about a month I had my hair in braids and now I am a proud wig-owner.  I've learned to love my natural hair, I'm still learning how to manage and take care of it but that doesn't mean that I don't get bored of it.

Change is good, we should all embrace change.  Change demotes attachment to things be it physical or emotional. Change is NOT boring. Change is beautiful and exciting and even though change may be frightening at times, it makes life interesting and it challenges the human spirit.  Change brings forth the new, hidden aspects of self. Change humbles us and thrusts us into the future where everything changes anyways. Change is inevitable, we might as well embrace it.

Below are some pix of the girl who likes to think of herself as a butterfly whose metamorphosis never ends :)