What baffles me is how you can grow up in the same household as someone else and not feel any form of emotional connection to the person in question.
How one can feel so detached from a person you supposedly share the same genetic make up with, the person who supplied you with 23 chromosomes in order for it to be possible for you to even exist in the first place.
How does one not feel infinite love for such a person?
What goes so terribly wrong between two such people connected in this way that they cannot even have a conversation without the parent causing endless amounts of pain and psychological damage to the child?
Why is it that this parent can only speak and act in an aggressive manner toward his daughter?
Why is it that the father chooses not to be gentle, kind and considerate in his dealings with his daughter?
Why does he feel the need to break down her strength and squeeze every ounce of care out of her crying heart?
Why does he look at her with hatred in his eyes?
Why does he look down on her with the dark shadow of disappointment glaring in his eyes.
Why does he reject her, neglect her in ways that make her seek only those things from men because that's how she's been cultivated to know 'love' from male energy.
All she could do was assume that his maltreatment of her was love because fathers are suppose to love their daughters right?
Why does she allow him to treat her this way and make herself vulnerable to this kind of abuse?
How does she begin the process of forgiveness and healing that she knows will set her free?
Will she forever be tied down to these sad and sorry excuses of memories she has of her father?
so deep!!!!!
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